It's been too long...

I have sadly been busy trying to deal with new changes, once again, that I've abandoned my blog.  Although I don't have my followers, for me this is my diary and my love of writing and sharing.

Finished my wonderful book, so many corners pulled down, highlights and notes but mostly concepts that I need to absorb even further.  During all this time, I've met with my boss and HR director and they are fully aware that although I want/need this job, it's a mutual agreement that I definitely don't FIT anymore.  I've tried to be the good Assistant, but my computer skills lack what she needs and having gone through such an emotional upheaval and being bullied, that I know that its also not healthy for me any longer.

I'm very scared, financially what this is going to do to me, the economy is still not stable and there are so many people out of work.  But I also know that she no longer wants to have me there as well and so it would come to this at some point.  After August 30th, I will have officially been there one year!  So, I have to commend myself for making it through that and working through keeping my mind intact, so to speak.  LOL

Let's see, no more men in my life, not dating, slowed back down emotionally and physically - so I need to build myself back up.   I need to work out again, my stomach is still a mess and I've gotten lazy (although over the last 3 days, I've managed to walk/semi jog) and on Tuesday, it actually felt like meditation doing it!  Today, Wednesday was tougher though - also because boss told the managers and they seemed rather 'rude' to me for the day?  But she said she told them that "I had chosen to move on to something else"... all is fine Laura, I just need to get my head and heart around this!!  Chin up old girl.  hee hee

Off to hang out with the girls again tomorrow night, hopefully that will help?  At least company of friends!  Speaking of which, Richard (basement neighbor) has been a god sent.  He also offered to 'help me' if I needed during my layoff!  How sweet, but you know me, I need to work this through on my own...

Well, off for now my dear peeps (if anyone is still reading).  I've attached a great picture that another friend also took of me this weekend - he's actually a photographer but a former colleague.  It was so hard having my picture taken though - I could NOT relax!